Sober Sunday

I hear this song almost every time I turn on the radio and it resonates deeply. During my married life, money bought a lot of things and furnished a life that many dream of, but I wasn’t happy and I didn’t learn the true meaning of happiness until all was lost many times over. Having money keeps you busy taking care of everything it buys, and I was tired from caring for everything, but me. I was busy, and always on the move, but didn’t know then that in the stillness, what we’re searching for, will find us.

I attended my Saturday morning women’s meeting online and it was like refilling my cup of serenity, simply by showing up one more day sober. For some, it was their first day, so they had literal hours of sobriety, but could still taste the remnants of the day before. The online meetings are free to join, but will cost some willingness.

Willingness-Being willing to be willing.
I have learned that I did not get here a day early, or a drink short.
I can give up one thing for everything, or everything for one thing.

These are some of things I’ve heard recently in the online rooms, but the last one is by far my favorite, because that’s where I landed with my drinking. At the time, I hadn’t lost anything material and was sitting at the top of the stairs in a mansion high up on a hill the day I hit bottom. I knew in that moment I had a choice to keep drinking and die, or surrender to a greater plan and lay down the drink, just for that day. That choice, my lovelies, filled my heart, refreshed my soul and gave me a life…that money can’t buy.