Our Inner Child

People are posting pictures of snow, and this stirs up some of my fondest childhood memories. Our house sat almost at the top a hill and the road was paved with a chunky asphalt. A drainage pipe laid under each driveway installed by the city, and I remember ours had a concrete bowl in the ground at each end of the pipe where the water could pool to slow the flow. Daddy would hunt for a fallen tree, or an old, sickly-looking one to chop up for firewood and fill the concrete pit to start a bonfire. This sound of the chainsaw made Mama nervous because Daddy was an alcoholic and hearing the saw meant he couldn’t handle his liquor, or an ax that day.

The sleds were made of wood with metal runners. Mama would lay a stub of a Christmas candle into my gloved palm to rub along each runner. The wax was supposed to serve as a barrier to protect the metal from the sloshy snow, but we all knew it also made your sled go fast. Every kid on the street would bundle up with layers of clothing until they could barely move and grab their sled to gather at our part of the hill to be near Daddy’s bonfire. The boys took a long time waxing their runners because to them it was a competition to see whose sled could go the fastest. For them it was a race to the bottom of the hill, but I was little and just wanted to go sledding.

Mama would yell from the porch, “Watch out for the kids smaller than you”, and Daddy would back her up by telling my older brother, “Don’t let your sister get killed.” Daddy’s one rule was, don’t wind up in the gully, mainly because he didn’t want to climb down in there to pull us out. So, if we lost control of our sled and were headed for the gully, we’d roll off into the street and let the sled keep going without us. It would stop without any weight on it, but you’d have to move quickly and pray there wasn’t anyone coming down the hill straight at you or one miscalculation would turn into two. Those sleds were such a rush, but the metal runners could slice off a body part.

Our street came to life with lots of screaming and yelling and it’s a miracle that any of us lived through it. Mama did a lot of praying, but if she heard crying, she knew which kid it was by the pitch of the cry and if they were injured, tired, or just having fun. The longer the day went the wilder it became until Mama would step outside onto the porch and call me inside. It was sad to leave the excitement of it all but would soon realize how tired and frozen I’d become after stepping inside the warm house. We were all so exhausted from playing so hard out in the freezing temps and Mama was relieved once we were all home safe.

You want to see your neighbors? Let the power go out and life as we know it comes to a crashing halt. Everyone will step outside just to make sure it’s an overall outage and not the power company cutting us off for forgetting to pay the bill. Your inner child squeals with delight in hopes of finding freedom at last, but that inner excitement is mistaken for panic and thinking sets in. Try as we might to figure out how to resume normal life with no power, all we have to do is listen deep within. Hopefully, you’ll hear the mumblings of our inner child calculating the amount of clothing it’s gonna take to go outside and play.

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21 responses to “Our Inner Child”

  1. You bring back lots of good snow memories Barb. “Don’t let your sister get killed.” I think I might have told that to my oldest daughter to watch out for her crazy brothers. Ha, ha.

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    1. Aw…I’m glad Brian and you know that comment is true! Part of the perks of being the youngest was when it came down to it, your brothers would protect you, but…I also had to be careful they didn’t get me in trouble. You were smart to warn your daughter, but I have a feeling she already knew. 😊

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  2. I love how you refer to them as mama and Daddy! Love, love, love- Barb. btw/ my “inner child” is alive and well/ heck my mom’s inner child is alive and well, she turns 90 on the 27th, and you’d swear she is 16.

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    1. Aw…thanks DM. It would almost offend them if we called them Mom and Dad, like it was too formal, so they remained Mama and Daddy to me. Yay for your inner child and Moms! Our bodies may age, but our hearts stay young, if we let them. 🥳

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  3. I also have wonderful snow-filled childhood memories. This brought many of them back!

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    1. I’m happy to hear that, Becky! 💖

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  4. I’m not a fan of winter these days, though I do remember how much fun we had as kids. I enjoyed reading your memories. Liked⭐️

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    1. I’m sorry lovely. A couple of years ago, I decided to embrace the winter to see what it offers. Examples are, breaking out the down comforter, seasonal candles, winter coffee, a good stew simmering on the stove and my favorite throw blankets, to name a few. I also continue to make myself walk the hood bundled up with a scarf, hat, gloves and jacket it has a different feel in the winter than other seasons. Everything is so still, plus I’m of the nature that staying indoors would drive me completely over the edge and we can’t have that now, can we? 😊

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      1. I love reading by the fireplace, making soup in the slow cooker and looking out through the windows at snow blanketing the trees in a frosting of white. It’s putting on layers of clothes, walking carefully on sidewalks coated in ice and traipsing through several inches of snow in freezing weather to walk the dog I have a problem with.

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      2. You have learned how to let the moments of winter feed your very soul and I love those same things you mentioned. Yeah…the dog would be on his own! I used to let our dogs out the back door after a snow and it was hilarious to watch! At the time I had a little Bishon, and he was very skeptical of the snow, but eventually figured out where to do his business which was sometimes right where he stood on the stoop! The big dog jumped right into the snow, running back and forth as if he somehow knew…it was meant for play. 😍

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  5. It definitely stirred up my inner child. Thank you, Barb. Wonderful❤️

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    1. Hi Dwight and I’m glad! Your inner child is alive and well, Mr. Adventurer!!! I’m happy for you stopping by and in my opinion, you made the right decision coming home. Now, you have a better idea of what van life is like, but you didn’t follow the herd…you stayed true to your heart and that’s what counts. 🙌

      PS…You weren’t far from where this story took place. I was raised in a little town not too far from Charlotte, NC. 😊

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      1. Thank you Barb. I really like North Carolina. My daughter is getting married near Asheville in May and super excited to explore that area more. Do you miss NC?

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      2. You are welcome, Dwight. Ah…I LOVE NC and Asheville is one of my favorite areas. I spent time there and collected some amazing pottery from local artisans. Your daughter chose a magical spot to get married and I’m guessing you are giving her away? To answer your question, it took many years to stop missing NC, but my heart has been pulling me back there now that my daughter is living on her own. I think about it almost every day, so it’s just a matter of time.

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      3. That’s pretty neat I’ve heard nothing but good things on Asheville. I’m excited to explore it while I’m out there for the wedding. She currently has plans to live in that area after college and my son has mentioned moving there eventually. Who knows … at some point I may be staying out there a few months of the year. 😊

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      4. Enjoy every moment, Dwight. You never know where the heart will lead.

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  6. Well, you did it again. I was right there with you!

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    1. WooHoo! You are the sweetest, Michelle. 🥳

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  7. Wow – thanks for the memories! Sledding down Baker’s Lane – what a free for all that was! Were our parents ever there? I don’t remember, just the speeding downhill and trudging back up. The telling of your dad is reminding me of the book I’m reading, though I’m not sure the father even drank, but he was someone who often put himself and his family at risk. I’m happy you grew to become who you are and overcame the challenges you knew. Our inner child has so much to teach us.

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    1. You are welcome and thank you lovely. xx

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