Never

The wind subsided, but a crash of thunder caused me to sit straight up in bed. My daughter says that living in this house nestled underneath massive oak trees during high winds has scarred me for life and she’s not wrong. I’ve seen what wind can do and living here has instilled an enormous respect for mother nature.

I got out of bed, pulled on my robe and walked to the front of the house to sit at the wooden table near a window. The dogs were pacing not sure where to lay, until they see where I’ve chosen to sit, so they find their spot on the floor nearby. I turned on some music as a soothing distraction from the rumblings of the sky and laid a blank piece of pale blue parchment paper on the table in front of me. As pen hits paper I begin filling the page with morning thoughts, until I hear the word, ‘Never’, being sang so forcefully it was almost like a musical scream.

I believe anything is possible, so whenever I’ve proclaimed ‘Never’ over something it seems to invite the situation in. Never has a quiet strength just waiting to be called out, like, “Did she just say never? We’ll show her!”, but there are times we need to scream it out. This song reminds me when we really want never to stand tall in our lives. My daughter reminds me when it’s windy that the trees have been trimmed and God has always protected me through every storm, so this time will be better than what I’ve gone through in previous years.

When I think of the word never today, I cannot think of one time that God has let me down. Sure, I’ve made mistakes and ran ahead of Him numerous times, but that was my will, not His and that’s what this song was saying…

You never let me down
No, You never let me down
When did You ever let me down?
Never, no, never

And just like these trees holding steady during this wind the song goes onto say…

Will there ever come a day when You’re not holding me together?
You say never

That’s what I’m believing. The power of that kind of never, where He never stops holding it all together, including these trees and me during high winds. Will I ever stop trusting Him? To that my lovelies, I can say this word with the same robust conviction in this song. Never.